My daughter and my grandson has been a great distraction to the reality of my life. They have been here for the last two weeks so I've not had time alone to ponder what is next.
I continue to tell myself "Things will be okay" "My life will go on," but and there is always a but..... How do I know what to do next? How do I determine where I should be? Who will be here to help with making the decisions that need to be made? I depended on Paul for his wisdom, sensibility, intelligence and input into our lives. Now it is just me, my life, alone without the one person who was my confidant, my love, my life.
Several friends have asked about a Memorial Service. Yes, there will be a "Celebration of Life" memorial service for Paul.
November 2, 2013 at 2:00 pm.
Caliente Springs Resort
70200 Dillon Road
Desert Hot Springs, California
Ferris Hall
You may be able to obtain accommodations here at Caliente Springs Resort which is a 55+ resort or at the sister resort Sky Valley resort for those under the 55+ requirement. If you prefer there are several casino/hotels within a 30 minute drive.
No matter what the future holds, I will always be grateful to everyone who has followed this blog and thankful that you were all a part of Paul's Journey in life.
All roads do lead somewhere, now I need to continue and find out where my road leads.
Jo
70200 Dillon Road
Desert Hot Springs, California
Ferris Hall
You may be able to obtain accommodations here at Caliente Springs Resort which is a 55+ resort or at the sister resort Sky Valley resort for those under the 55+ requirement. If you prefer there are several casino/hotels within a 30 minute drive.
No matter what the future holds, I will always be grateful to everyone who has followed this blog and thankful that you were all a part of Paul's Journey in life.
All roads do lead somewhere, now I need to continue and find out where my road leads.
Jo
hang in jo god be with you and we are love you toni and family
ReplyDeletePaul will always be by your side Jo. Always watching over you. Just talk to him out loud, he will hear you. Little Cooper sits on my left shoulder daily. When I walk Chompers in the evening we chat. I see him there fluttering around all the time. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. Take one day at a time. Thinking of you.....
ReplyDeleteWe'll miss it by a week :(
ReplyDeletePraying for you.
Carol and I send our prayers to you and your family. Keep strong Jo.
ReplyDeleteJust one day at a time. I think you're road will be bumpy and twisty in the beginning, but I also believe in time it will smooth out and help lead to another (but different) place of happiness.
ReplyDeleteKnow you are loved.
Mym
Kirk and I will be there in our thoughts, Jo. Know that we love you and not a day goes by that you aren't in my thoughts. Sending you hugs and kisses.
ReplyDeleteKathy
I hope your glass continues to be "half-full". May many blessings be coming your way.
ReplyDeleteTheresa
Jo, there will be good days and bad days no doubt. Trust in yourself, you are smart and wise. You have many who care deeply about you and you can call upon when you need them. You are not alone and I know for certain you are in our thoughts and prayers every day. I can not imagine what it is really like, what you face each day and how you can cope. But I do know you are strong and have an inner strength, trust in yourself and draw from your inner strength. We will continue to keep you in our prayers and surely Paul is looking out for you, encouraging you to carry on down the road of life's path.
ReplyDeleteVince
"All roads lead somewhere" has become an inspiring mantra for me. It helps me realize that it doesn’t matter what road I’m on. If I keep plodding, I’ll get somewhere. It helps me in the dark times, urging me to keep my feet moving with the friendly reminder that eventually I’ll be somewhere brighter.
ReplyDelete"All roads lead somewhere" resonates with another favorite, aphorism: "grow where you're planted", and encourages me not so much to find a better road but to seek the little flowers that might spring from the ruts in this one.
And "all roads lead somewhere" finally reminds me of my favorite Psalm: "Be still and know that I am God." When I am overwhelmed, it helps me recognize that I need only do my bit, put in my effort, and the rest is up to Him.
Thanks for the reminders. I hope the blessings you receive from your blog at least match the blessings you give!
Jo,
ReplyDeleteI am so glad I got to see you and Paul while I was in Caliente over the 4th of July. I am so sorry to hear that he passed.
I know just how you feel..The hard kick in the stomach, the rug being pulled out from under you, and the huge hole in your heart. The thoughts that go though our minds of wondering what you will do now to start you life over after being with and having that wonderful person taken from you.
Many years ago when my father passed a little old lady friend of my mothers, put her arm around her and said " The best advice anyone has ever given me was " after a death of a loved one NEVER make any major decision, moves, or sell a thing for a full year. Your mind is in no condition to think clearly let alone make the right choice. If you do, you will regret it in the future". When my Ken passed I felt for the first time in my life a sense of fear, confusion and unbelievable weakness. I have always been a very strong person, being single for many years and then finding such a "Dream Man" to care for me, take care of me, and making me feel complete. Having to start over seemed unbearable, confusing, and scary. I remembered the advice that was given to my mother which was God sent.
You are in the very best place you can be until you can heal from the shock of losing Paul. The wonderful, caring people that live in Caliente help when you need them, but don't push. Believe me with out their kindness, going back to work, and the comfort of knowing I was not going to do anything for a year really did the trick. It was truly like the fog cleared, I could think clearly, make good choices and knew exactly what I needed to do "one year" almost to the day Ken passed. It was the strangest feeling I have truly felt in my life.
Jo, my sincere advice to you is...Pull up you Big Girl Pants...Go back to work full time soon...Play as much water ball as you can..Start smiling more...and don't make a decision on anything for ONE YEAR(not 6 months) and you will be fine.
Face it girl, you are a strong, strong, women.. You were before Paul and you still are. Life is for the living and you have a long way to go..
Hugs to you my friend until I get back there to give you a real one. I hope something I have written will help you though this.
Cherrie